It's been popping up lately. You know, I grew up with the series and while things in the series were bad, it never really HIT me how bad these things were, like the synapses never really fired for me to elicit a really deep emotion. Exceptions included Gaara and Sasori's childhood, because I'm a *er for lonely children that just give into despair and loneliness. And then the last third of the series happened and wow did it turn very much into a commentary on war and politics and pre-Meiji/WWI imperialism-like mentality of nations holding onto grudges and su*ions from generations back. This development occurred while I was in high school and only just ended when I was mid-way through college, and let me tell you fam, I'm going through some brain rearranging with the chemicals and the adulting and the growing up and sometimes just thinking about how much these characters have suffered, the lives they've lived, the world they live in, the brutality and whatever...it really gets me. Sometimes I lie awake at night thinking about it. Yeah, a bit of a late bloomer when it comes to "getting it" but hey, better late than never, right? Wrong. It *s. I wish I could just process this all and kind of just...live knowing it, but I'm kind of an emotional wreck from just FEELING everything this series is supposed to invoke for the first time. Literally, everything is just now being felt as I should have when I originally saw and read it. :L

What's funny is that I can still read something like Berserk and totally be like "That's cool, that's fine, oh that's horrible but it's fine" but I guess because I grew up with these characters and found Naruto to be like, a place to escape to as a kid, realizing that, no, there are issues in this series that reflect reality and therefore it's not all fun and games...it's kind of like "what do?!". :funk:

I'm joking about this, but it's still a problem I'm trying to cope with, that little haven of safety being a lie because I wasn't emotionally developed enough to realize the real ramifications of certain characters' actions. I loved the villains before I truly knew what their murdering and killing really "meant".

I dunno why I even made this thread, but I just decided to.