In-Game Name: Sukuna
Region: HK
Server: S26: Kisame
UID: 200000096368823

SUKUNA ==== This is the holiday season and Christmas fever is upon me. Windows are garlanded in green and red, yards are alight with reindeer decoration and milling crowds of shoppers and neighbors fill the streets, stores and malls. I put up my tree last week for a upcoming exquisite day. Had to assemble it first - then I threw an artificial yule log on the propane augmented fire and began to reminisce about Christmases past. This holidays tend to do that - and I found myself remembering another Christmas in another time ... like another place.

As I crumble in my own mind during chill of winter - while I sat down, hearing my family laughing and have a good time, something ticking inside my head. So, what is winter actually like? The answer is not that difficult, basically, it is cold and it is dark. The further my mind travelling to nowhere, the rain turns to sleet and snow, and the temperatures drop low enough to discourage much of the outdoor work and play - that human beings enjoy the rest of the year, and the days are shorter, with so many more hours of darkness.

My nerve getting numb, my mind is echoing. Later, that unsolved puzzle inside my head that leave no clue behind but only curiosity, lead me from nowhere to wander to people in the medieval eras. I see myself there - alone, sad, no roof to sheltered from snow. Its going deeper as I ask myself, what must it have been like for him, to have a family to be loved, a friends to be hold.

I felt bad seeing him, or reflection of me, sitting there alone, catch by a winter snow. I embrace myself, began to take a step, to get closer - closer - and closer. As I approaching him, something - a barrier, separate me from reaching myself. I become clueless - why is this happening as I try to help others? Then, a girl come across between him and I, she notice something different on this man. As her eyes look deeply into him - she can see, she can feel, she can ... do something to help those poor empty soul.

As her start asking him why he is sitting there alone, he lift up his face and looks directly into her eye, he said - I just want to ... [BLANK]

==== I just woke from my deep dreams from my family laughter. My family ask me to join they under a Christmas tree, sharing a stories and have some cookies. As I want turn their offer down - I realize that I have taking granted on others, on myself. I stood there, space out, thinking. What if I'm that man, alone with no family to be loved nor friend to be hold. Then, something telling me, the chill go through my spine - trigger back to that prior moment.

I remember, the words that the man want say, he said: I just want to be WITH MY FAMILY. Without noticing, I speak that sentences out loud, heard by family. They smile and we have an awkward hugs - as I try to hold my man tears.

Merry Christmas and have a great day with your families.